Yesterday I had my Practicum evaluation at the elementary school I've been at for 45 hours. It was so much better than I had anticipated and the positive feedback I received was such a boost of confidence! I've contemplated being a teacher A LOT and sometimes I feel like I would get so overwhelmed with the work and responsibility that comes with it. Other times I just think there's no better goal I can have than to help children. But as I sat down with my instructor after my evaluation of my lesson and she gave me her thoughts my doubts were gone and I know I was where I was supposed to be.
Later that day I had a less than pleasant discussion with Tyler and it turned into tears and frustration. I so badly want my marriage to be perfect and sometimes I have to swallow my pride and realize that's pretty impossible right now since we are two incredibly flawed people. But I constantly have to remind myself that the love we have for each other and for our Heavenly Father trumps all that. So like always we apologized and had a bonding moment. We both agreed to do better next time. We could easily just agree to disagree, not talk for the rest of the day and let those bitter feelings linger but we worked it out instead.
Like everyone I have struggles. Hard ones and not so hard ones. But I feel like it's harder when you have all these little struggles because they start to add up and turn in to stress and overwhelming emotions. At the same time things are so great! Finding a balance seems nearly impossible at times but I've learned you have to just enjoy the happy parts and push through the darker parts.
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